Shocking news

Nobody can ever predict their future, we, human never know when is the time we would left the earth .

Yesterday when I went back my home sweet home, I received a shocking news from my mom, she told me that my youngest uncle had admitted to hospital and the doctor found out that he had a stomach cancer (i don't really know the exact name) and is the forth stage already.

Seeing my mom cried in tears, i feel the pain in her heart, nobody wants to see their love one sick especially the people they really love. Is a pain for us to receive such bad news, I knew my mom couldn't take it . I wish I had the time to be by my mom side to support her so that she can support my uncle too. Uncle joo , i pray and hope that you will recover from your sickness and the most important thing is please stay strong in mentally and physically. We, wong's family will back you up .

At this moment, I feel so miserable, life seems so peaceful , out of sudden this breaks the happiness and the peacefullness . You never know how's tomorrow.
Tomorrow seems so abstract and far far away to me, today you might living happily and tomorrow you might be meeting angel in the heaven, you never know. This wakes me up from my little dream world, It realises me to appreciate the people around us, people who loves us and we love.

All these while , I never bother to really care about my friends and family . I always take things for granted and never appreciate what i had and I never knew how lucky am i being born to this world. I blame everything , not being born in a wealthy family make me realise the importance of money to me but now money and fame means nothing at all . Without a healthy body , you do not have a chance to enjoy this . Money and fame is just a value or a digit which plays around our life. At the end of the day, we means nothing at all besides a soul either fill with love or loneliness.

From now onwards, I wanna live my life to the fullest in each and every single day and appreciate what I have .To my loved one, thanks for every thing that you guys did to me, and for uncle joo stay strong ya .

Confusion

It takes me ages to start my 2nd post, not because of having a busy and boring uni life but yet just don't know how to express my feelings in words.
Time flies fast, I had start my degree course 2 months ago and i didn't even know what I'm learning until now, is not that I don't understand what they say, is just the matter of interest in it.
Before I start my degree, many people had told me that actuarial science is not easy as we thought and hardly to get a job in the future but I still refuse to listen the advise that people gave me , as usual the stubborn me.

Deep in my heart I knew that there is a will there is a way, no matter how difficult it is , I will still put my 100% in it. But now I realise that it is just a matter of passion. After I start my semester 1 , I just feel that I do not have any passion in it, I've been dreaming in the class and feel that I'm wasting my time.

Practically, I'm a person who LOVE about food, seriously , I can be very excited when I'm talking about food, at first I thought of taking nutritionist course but due to the financial problems that I encounter ,I choose to give up on this . I should realise earlier, actuarist isn't what I want to be in the future, I want to get involve in food and health industry , is it too late to change ? people would say is never too late to change but I need to consider a lot of issues.

This really driving me crazy , every night I can't stop thinking of this, I need some advises from you people, whoever read this pls drop me some comment, kay?